Page Five

I've learned a lot of lessons
In the  time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to feel again
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How this time I'm not the one to blame.
If only I could have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
But now I'll spend each day of my life with a heart, broken and abused

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved , the times you've left
My heart says stay, but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter and fun times and tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."

It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your puppet
With heartstrings open and bared

Watching you from across the room
sends searing pain through my heart.
I think back to years ago,
when I thought we'd never part.
My love for you just won't die
it just grows with each new day.
I wish you'd dare to look at me
and hear what I have to say;

But everytime I confronted you with the truth, you acted like I was  the fool and looked at me like   you wish I wasnt there, well now I'm giving you your wish and I'll be the one this time, to disappear.